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11 January 2011 @ 08:41 pm
I don't know if it's just because it's winter and it's a depressing season, but now I'm in this sort of funk. I already find myself wishing to go back to last semester's classes.

First impressions:
Creative Writing Seminar - It's the absolute devil and I'm going to die. That is it. I don't even know how I'll get through 15 classes of Samarco yelling at me and expecting me to comment on EVERY discussion. I'm scared and frankly, I don't feel like writing. At all. Thanks, Samarco, thanks a lot.

U.S. Women's History - My professor likes to ramble and has a lot to say about every little thing. But she's very knowledgeable and the class looks easy enough. I just have to get through the class and readings.

Women's Literature - I love Professor Migan and she even remembered me from three years ago, which means she must like me too. I'm really interesting in this course and I can't wait until we get to reading Northanger Abbey and Jane Eyre.

It's just my seminar I'm worried about. And, from worrying about that, I'm now worrying about my entire life. I don't know what to do with my life. I don't know if I want to write anymore. I'm probably not going to get into graduate school. I haven't published any of my stories, I haven't gotten any awards, and I don't have the support of my writing professor.

I'm a failure.
Current Mood: rejectedrejected
Current Music: NCIS
04 January 2011 @ 10:04 pm
This is what I'm watching.

Every time a school break comes around, I promise myself that I won't get so bored that I'm cry about how I have nothing to do.

It happened again.

Leave me questions and entertain me? :D
28 December 2010 @ 06:06 pm
Let me start by refreshing you with last year:

Well, at 7, I pulled into church. My cousins were there. We sat around. At 7:30, my aunt and uncle came. We sat around. Finally, at 8, two older couples showed up. We talked for a bit about really boring things, and then one of the ladies wanted to play Scrabble.

I played Scrabble with three moms and a grandma.

I lost.

I then watched two five-year-olds argue over who gets to play the Wii.

Then midnight came around, I counted down to midnight for the couples since we didn't have a TV or anything and then said, "Okay, it's midnight." And we said "happy new year" and then I drove home and went to bed.

I vowed I would not go back to my church again for New Years Eve. So, now it's that time again and I have three choices:
1. Stay at home in my pajamas and watch the countdown by myself.
2. Go with my parents and watch them get drunk with all of their friends.
3. Go back to church.

I'm used to being not invited (or uninvited) to things, so it shouldn't bother me, but it does. I feel as though I'm not 21-year-old college student. I'm never a 21-year-old college student. I never go out. I never go to events. I never do anything but study, watch TV, and surf the Internet. A part of me really wants to be invited to some party, just to rebel for a night.

But, no, I'm probably going back to church this year. Another year of sitting around, checking my phone for the time, and waiting to go home.
Current Mood: sadsad
09 December 2010 @ 03:28 pm
I've been giving out candy canes today and everyone's been freaking out. I had my group in Gender and Politics practically sing praises to me.

Oh, crap, I forgot to give Paul a candy cane when he recognized me because of my coat.

Anyway, today's been really great because nothing is due and I'm just sitting around, watching presentations. I'm also making plans to go out to Iowa during Spring Break, but first, I have to find a job. Here's hoping.
08 December 2010 @ 11:34 pm

1. Paul once again commented on the color of my eyes. He likes to see if they change each day. We also talked about the dream he had about ostriches chasing him. Chrissy said the baby ostriches are his illegitimate children.

2. Ashkea bought me thin mints!

3. Prof Morley gave me a perfect attendance award.

Teh end.
29 November 2010 @ 04:11 pm
It's already the end of November and the end of NaNoWriMo. For people who think the month went by quickly, I can't say the same thing. It seemed to drag forever in places, especially as I wrote around 2,000 words each day. It was a struggle to hammer out those words and I was really hating my novel. Now that I'm finished, I sort of like it. There are parts I think are interesting and some of the characters have potential, but as a whole, it's not...a novel. It's just a draft, as it should be. I added a character at the very end of the novel (last 10,000 words or so) and learned that I really, really liked him. I might have to introduce him sooner (even though it's sort of impossible) or write from his POV next time.

I learned there are two "plots" I love in television shows, movies, and books.
1. The main character is either an author or someone who lost someone. They talk to/see their characters/lost loved ones.
Ex. next to normal, an episode of House I loved.
2. A "new" character appears to the cast and admits he/she is from the future. They're all-knowing and just generally awesome as they ruin/preserve the timeline.
Ex. Misfits
(I recently found this show and this is what got me hooked.)

I need to write a story with those plots.

I've also learned that there's a type of character that I always fall in love with. It's usually a boy, shy and reserved, misunderstood to the people around him. He's picked on and vulnerable and yet, still manages to have AWESOME moments.
Ex. McGee from NCIS, Moritz from Spring Awakening, Simon from Misfits.

I feel like I learned a lot this month about where my writing's heading. I'm worried that I'll venture over to sci-fi though. I want to stay writing young adult lit.

Anyway, my life is still epically boring so I put everything into that novel this month. I don't need a social life. That's for losers...right?

Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
03 November 2010 @ 11:15 pm
Here, for all of you to enjoy, is a recap of my day.Collapse )
Current Mood: blankblank
28 October 2010 @ 10:44 pm

1. Go to my brother's football game.
2. Dress as Amy Pond. Take pictures.
3. Study for my two exams.

Wow, my life has been exciting. Actually, I think I've been concentrating on my studies even more than usual. I haven't been going out and I don't have roommates this year to bother me, so everything is about my schoolwork. I know of 4 classes right now in which I'm getting high As (97 or above) and my other class is at a 94 right now.

My group tried to convince me to go out for Halloween and told me about the miracles of Gatorade and Tylenol after a wild night. It was a really conversation.
14 October 2010 @ 04:53 pm
I wish I could have something interesting to report.

Life is boring.

I honestly can't think of a single interesting thing that's happened to me. I've watched a lot of football lately...how exciting, I know.

I need to get out and do things. Maybe one day.
30 September 2010 @ 04:40 pm
Thursdays are my Fridays. Only one more class and I'm out of here for the weekend. I'm going to a karaoke bar tonight, and I really don't know how that's gonna go.

School has been okay.

I just checked my Geography grade and got an 84/90. Not bad considering the average was a C. The professor also mentioned that the highest was a couple points off from 100% so it might be me.

I got 100% on my Gender Studies portfolio. It took my whole life to do, so I deserved it. I'm thinking I might write a screenplay for the next one.

Really nothing much more to say. Just waiting until class.
Current Mood: boredbored